RIP Craig B

So yesterday was a crazy day, A friend of ours called us at about 9:30 am to tell us that one of our good friends and part of the MI crew,(thats what we call ourselves down here; everyone teases us that we all got on a bus and the whole town moved to FL) had passed away earlier that morning. Craig was a great person and could of been so much more. Instead he let drugs get the better of him and they stole his friendships and eventually his life. I am upset because Craig was only 25 yrs old, younger than me and his poor parents had to get a phone call from some complete stranger saying that their son was dead and his death could of been prevented! Why do people let themselves get so far into drugs like that? I know there are a couple other people with the same problem who are saying "Well Craig was diferent he had diabetes or he was into the shit more than I am blah blah blah..." Well the same shit is gonna happen to these people one day if they dont wake up and clean there shit up!!! One night they are just gonna go to bed and never wake up just like Craig! I knew Craig for over 10 years, from way back when he used to come in the Pizza Shop with his jv football team!! Its like Thom said I hope this is a wake up call and that everyone stops fucking around with the damn pills! THEY WILL KILL YOU!!!

I am tired

So I worked all weekend havent had a chance to write because it takes me until now to get caught back up on housework and sleep. I have been kinda bummed lately and I dont know if its because our lease is up and we need to decide wherther or not to move and everythign being in limbo is giving me anxiety or what but shit has been bothering me more than it usually does,, Monday I was sick and yesterday I had the awful pre-effects of the monthly visitor. Not to mention that the lst two days Kaden has turned into a holy terror. He spends most of his days kicking and screaming ont he floor throwing a fit because I wont let him play on the computer or get him his 9th sippy of milk for the day. What the hell am I supposed to do? Bust his ass or ignore it??? Last night I put Phoenix to bed around 10 and he woke up at 2 to eat. THis was fine and I am used to it so I made him a bottle and fed and changed him and afterward he usually goes right back to sleep but he cried off and on for the rest of the night until about 10 min ago when I got up and put him inj his swing and made coffee and took the baby gate down for Kaden. Now he is fast asleep and I am wide awake and its 5:56 AM!! HE was up at 5 yesterday too. I need more sleep and I dont want to wake up Thom becuase he is NOT an early riser and has to work today but I am completely exhauseted. My tummy is starting to hurt again too. I dont even know if this blog will make sense because I am fricken slap happy tired right now. Oh wel looks like its gonna be another day jam packed with caffeine and nicotine; this is my life.